Ay ay ay arribaaaaa, quieres bailar? Mirame *emoji biting the lip*. I don't know how to work with emojis here. But o tren vai andando pasiño a pasiño e vaime levando cara o meu destiño. We'll get there eventually. So, today I couldn't have less to say. I spent all day at home. I am LYING. I went to the gym today. Found out the person I was going to marry in a few years has someone else (which means I'll have to wait until life brings them apart, because of course that's going to happen, love doesn't stand the test of time anymore, unless I am the one in love YES that is the truth) and then spent the rest of the day at home eating and feeling bad for not going out. But it was raining, what was I supposed to do. I feel so uncomfortable in the rain. Except if I am being kissed by a strong man with HUGE HUGE muscles ripping off his spider man t-shirt, of course I am okay in that specific scenario, who doesn't like an extremely wet kiss when it's –20 degrees outside and your mouths just freeze on each other it's so yummy me cago en dios because it's so good. So as I was saying, I ate so much good and healthy stuff, you have no clue. I ate so much good kawaii food and carrots that my eyes turned green. Anyway, that's all. I learned a lot about coding, and now I think I could code our love too, if you feel like it of course. God and I are taking a break, it hurts my feelings that you thought I was cheating. I thought you knew me better. But if you don't, you can now, would you? I feel like showing the real me to you. I trust you. I wanna get naked to you. Oh, yes, I meant metaphorically hmmm, what ahahah I am not that naughty and promiscuous ayy lol I would never xD :) *smiling emoji sweating soooo much more than normal* ahaha so awkward. What was I saying? Ah. I'm gonna be honest, I just think you're so special, really. God was perfect. But it is imperfection that I'm craving. We feel frustrated and sad when things are not easy. But then when they're easy we feel like something is missing. We feel depressed, angry, sick. Don't give me that "OMG THATS SO TOXIC". I need that toxicity, oh my *** I want it so bad. I want to be consumed by that. I wanna be consumed by what's wrong. God was not toxic and I want to be inTOXIcated AHAHAHAHAH please tell me you're gonna hurt my feelings :( I'd do anything just to be able to cry for you all day. To shake all day because you make me so nervous when you disappear. To get a message from you saying nothing more than "kkkkk". Oh the thought of it :) could you help me on that. Is it asking too much? You know you're not as good as you try to show. You know you're envious, jealous, you don't want the best for other people. That narrative is so easy to memorize. Hey, feel it all. You can feel it all with me. Let's feel it all together. Let's get lost in love and lust and let it last