Uhhh I'm feeling so fabulous today :) you did notice how my handwriting was so much prettier today compared to the other days, didn't you? I did it for you. How's your day going? I should make this more interactive maybe. I'm so afraid that you'll get tired of me. Okay let's talk about something else. I'll tell you about MY day. I'm not feeling fabulous today, I'm gonna be honest. I am always lying, I don't know why. Sometimes I lie because I'm so anxious about having to say something that I say the first thing that comes to my mind. And usually that first thing is a lie. Does that mean all my thoughts are lies? Lol that's interesting, but maybe. It would actually help sometimes. When I'm feeling down and cannot stop thinking about how I'm not gonna be funny to anyone anymore. About how I won't have anything else in the world to say about anything, like absolutely every conversation topic is gonna seize to exist. About how all my friends are gonna stop finding me relatable because I can't keep up. Because I don't evolve. Because I am alone and more and more and more insecure. Less me, less. I mean that's impossible. You are relating to what I'm writing right now. You feel the void. You're feeling it now. I think I've just proven all my thoughts are lies. What does this mean? I think, therefore I am. Is my existence less valid because the content of my thoughts are lies? I don't think there is any provision stating that. So, my existence is assured, at least. Uff I was already sweating ahaha. I need to admit something, the other day I was talking to my roommates and told them with all certainty that one of my friends was 1,96m. It was a complete brain fart, the moment the smelly wiggy waggy fart went away I realised I had just lied. I was perplexed because it felt like a flex when I couldn't care less about how tall my friends are. But he was 10cm shorter. Oh my G** this was such a tall lie AHAHAHAHAHAH xD. shshshs xd. ahemm ^0^. :). I just needed to be honest somewhere, because I don't have the balls to tell them the truth now. They were so baffled about his high, like this: :0 wow. This information made their day. They were so happy, so impressed, smiling, I could tell that was the day everything changed. They were exploding inside, I could see the fireworks coming out of their eyeballs in the form of tears. Tears of joy, bliss. That's how surprised they were. So yes, I think it takes some huge round soft balls to admit it was all a lie and that's something I don't have because I am a woman.